Weight Watchers Update – Week# 11

Simply stated: Another one down… A shit load to go – lol!

 

Total: 12.4 pounds

 

 

In other news, this is my up week physically.  Most of the side effects have subsided for now (later to return, of course).  Feeling well is a blessing, for sure.  I’ve been a little lazy the beginning portion of the week.  Not a good thing physically or emotionally.  It’s just given me time to become morose and whiney.  I spent a part of last evening with tears in my eyes, just because.  Surely we all are entitled to a bit of melancholy.  However, in my case I don’t like to indulge because I can sink low if I allow myself.  I think the other part is a bit of Winter Stir Crazy syndrome.  I’m stuck in the house and I dislike it.  I want OUT!  I want warm air and sunshine on my face.  I want nature.  The other part is that my hair finally started falling out in clumps last night.  To the naked eye, I don’t think others can notice today, but I can.  And they will very soon.  I was hoping to get through this weekend as “normal” as I have some functions to attend.  It will now steadily keep falling until it’s gone.  It’s not like I didn’t know it would happen.  Though when it does, it hits every part of my vanity and self esteem.  It shakes me.  It makes me think that others will point and whisper and feel sorry for me.  I don’t like pity.  Compassion I can handle and embrace, but Pity? UGH.  I also have to work to keep that bit of femininity alive within my soul.  You’d be so surprised at how much of our self esteem comes from our HAIR!  Honestly, I know I was able to move past it all last time, and I know this time will be no different, possibly even a bit easier.  But now, in the beginning, all of those feelings have come rushing down upon me.  Crushing my smile.  Shattering my ego.  Cracking my strong exterior shell. 

 

At least for today.